Total pages in book: 181
Estimated words: 181613 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 908(@200wpm)___ 726(@250wpm)___ 605(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 181613 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 908(@200wpm)___ 726(@250wpm)___ 605(@300wpm)
I’m not sad at all about them claiming every inch of my body like they owned it.
I’m sad about lying to Grey.
And that he had to lie to me.
He cups my face. “I know. I know. I know.”
“I didn’t want to hurt you. I wanted to save you from Levi. And I failed,” I mutter.
“You did what you had to. Apollo is the only one he listens to,” he says.
I’m still stuck in a loop. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”
He pulls me into his embrace. “Don’t apologize.”
I don’t know why he’s so forgiving, why he’d let this go so easily, when I just fucked two men right in front of him…
And liked it.
I fucking liked it when I shouldn’t have.
“Dammit,” I mutter under my breath.
But then I remember what those boys said … how he lied to my face too.
“You …” I murmur, still smelling the scent of Apollo’s cum on him. “You joined the Phantoms. Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because I didn’t want you to worry about me,” he says. “I knew Levi was after me because I’m your boyfriend, so I wanted to protect myself against him, but it ended up being his final trigger. I’m the reason they did this.”
I pull out of the hug and look into his piercing blue eyes that still take my breath away.
But I don’t know what to say.
None of it feels right.
“And the pictures?” I mutter.
His eyes twitch. “He’ll say anything to make you hate me. That’s what he wants. To split us up.”
I’m so confused. “But how do I know who’s telling the truth?”
“You know because I love you,” he says, cupping my face. “And he doesn’t know the meaning of the word.”
I close my eyes and let it all sink in.
“We’re both liars …” he whispers, leaning in to press the gentlest of kisses on my lips. “Both willing to sacrifice ourselves.”
There’s a vicious glint in his eyes, one that reminds me of my Ghost, and goose bumps instantly spread on my skin. But the more kisses he plants the more delirious I become, and my kisses are filled with an unquenchable rage building deep inside, threatening to consume me whole.
Grey
There’s a fire blazing deep inside her, roaring with a hunger for destruction. The sparks are palpable in each of my kisses, but I’m not afraid of the burn. She would be a sight to behold if she’d ever let the inferno reign.
“Don’t fight it,” I say.
She bites my lip, the pain only turning me on. “I’m so goddamn angry.”
I smile against her lips. My gorgeous girl … “I can feel it.”
“Aren’t you?” she asks.
I pause, a twinge tugging at my brow.
I should be.
Levi captured me and strapped me to that chair like he wanted to show me what he’d be capable of, what he’s willing to destroy to get to me. And Apollo used me like a toy, played with a part of me I didn’t even know existed, and it struck a chord so deep I don’t know if I’m ever going to be the same as I was before.
“I hide my anger well,” I reply.
But she leans away, averting both lips and eyes, and it doesn’t feel good at all.
“What’s wrong?” I ask.
She sits down on the bed. “I … I don’t know. There’s just so many things going on. So many lies.”
Fuck. He actually did it.
She’s actually questioning my motives and the truth.
I step back.
She sighs. “I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want you to worry, but some time ago, Levi came here to tell me that he saw you in the Bonesmen Brotherhood territory.”
He saw me? That motherfucker.
My fist balls. “It’s not what you think.”
“Is it?” She looks up, disdain filling her eyes. “Because I didn’t want to believe him, and I didn’t for the longest time. But you lied to me about the Phantoms … so why would I believe you over him?”
“Everyone is lying. Even you,” I say.
Shit. Maybe I shouldn’t have said that.
“To protect you,” she says.
“By fucking with Apollo,” I add.
A glossy sheen of embarrassment makes her cheeks even pinker. Gorgeous.
I kneel in front of her. “I’m not mad at you. I promise. You were doing it because you had no choice…” I grasp her knees.
Her fingers scrunch up on her thighs. “I don’t understand how … why I even liked it. Why my body enjoyed it as much as it did.”
I glance up at her, the conflict on her face visceral.
“Can I be alone? Just for a while?” she asks. “I just want to shower and sleep. Alone.”
Alone.
I sigh out loud and stand.
She doesn’t trust me anymore.
There’s nothing I can say that aren’t more lies.
If I told her the truth now … how I watched her have sex with Apollo in the gym, how I’ve been stalking her since day one … the cameras … she’d never fucking trust me again.