Total pages in book: 61
Estimated words: 60268 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 301(@200wpm)___ 241(@250wpm)___ 201(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 60268 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 301(@200wpm)___ 241(@250wpm)___ 201(@300wpm)
“We’re not exactly sitting.”
“You know what I mean.”
“I know. It’s just hard at times. I don’t know what to say to you, and you confuse me all the time,” she said.
“I’m about to tell you something, and I don’t want you to get angry.”
“I won’t.”
“You kept diaries, and I found them in the loft.”
Rose smiled. “You’ve been reading them,” she said.
“You knew?”
“I went to the loft the other day looking for them, and saw the box had been moved. When I asked Baker or Fighter, they hadn’t touched them. I knew it was you. This is what I’ve gotten for you reading my diaries?”
“You’re not pissed?” he asked.
“At first I was. I was so damn angry that you’d invaded my privacy, and then I couldn’t care about it. What I wrote in those books was because I couldn’t tell you about it.”
“It made me understand you in ways I didn’t think were possible. It gave me an insight into who you are.”
“Then I’m glad, even if it is scary to know that you’ve been part of my worst thoughts.”
“I never thought you were bad,” he said.
“Even when I wanted that woman dead?”
“Even then. I got you. I understand what you meant, and the pain you were feeling. It made me realize how much shit you were trying to handle all at the same time. I just want to tell you, baby, it didn’t. I wanted you. Only you. I love you, not anyone else.”
Rose licked her lips, and glanced down, looking at his chest.
“She could give you everything.”
“She wasn’t you. I don’t give a fuck what she could give me, Rose. I only ever loved you. When it happened, and I was doing what I did, I was screaming at myself to stop.” Hardy gritted his teeth as a sudden wave of sadness gripped him. “I didn’t know what I was doing or even thinking. It was all a blur, and even as I was messing up, all I could think about was your face. We’d been coming apart, and I remember you kept asking for shit, and not even stuff like a new kitchen. You were asking for dates, for time, for everything, and I was so used to bitches just being there without any of that shit that I knew I was failing you.” He chuckled.
“Failing me?”
“You weren’t just happy with me putting my ring on your finger, and taking my cock. For a long time all I’d ever had to do was crook my finger and women did as they were told, and I loved it. You, I loved more than anything. I loved you with all my heart, and my head was screwing with me. I panicked because you were asking for stuff I didn’t even know if I could give you. Suddenly, I wasn’t this big badass biker who could do what he wanted, and my woman would just fall in line. I was someone else, someone who couldn’t give you everything, and make sure you were smiling. I was this asshole biker, who’d seen you at a party and snapped you up. There were men out there that would take you away from me, give you the dinners, the dates, and the life that you’ve been craving, because I didn’t have it in me to give it to you.”
“What changed?”
“I suddenly realized I don’t have to wait for the moment for you to leave me for better. You’d already left me, and I was the same guy who was just broken inside. My woman didn’t want me, but the club still had me. There were still bitches there, and none of them were you.” Hardy stroked his thumb over her cheek, going down to run the tip against her lips. “Then it was like a message or something to me, and I watched the brothers with their women, and I knew that the only person stopping me from giving you exactly what you wanted, was me. I’m the one who could give you whatever the hell you want, no one else.”
“This is why you took me to a fancy place instead of burgers.”
“Yes. I have to concede defeat. The food was pretty awesome, deliciously so.”
She giggled and pressed a kiss to his lips. “Does this mean I’ve got a lot more to look forward to?”
“You’re going to be in for a couple of surprises along the way. Think of everything you’ve ever wanted, and just wait for me to get to it. I’ve got a lot of ground to cover, and that’s exactly what I’m going to do.” He pressed his nose against hers, and smiled. “We’ve never done this before. We need to do this more often.”
“Make love?”
“Talk. I love your voice, and I want to hear it more often.”
“It will be up to you as to whether I can get a word in,” she said, laughing.