Total pages in book: 70
Estimated words: 68192 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 341(@200wpm)___ 273(@250wpm)___ 227(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 68192 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 341(@200wpm)___ 273(@250wpm)___ 227(@300wpm)
“Have you ever been kissed by a man?”
I… um… I had to swallow before I could reply. I’d messed around with guys in high school but never felt much of anything with them. Compared to Lorenzo, they were clearly still boys. “I’ve… um… done some things, but not kissing.”
“Hmm. Have you kissed a girl?”
“Yes.” My only kiss had been with a girl who’d forced the issue at a dance. As soon as the kiss had ended, I’d run from her.
“Have you ever had a kiss that made your knees weak, made you think you were going to pass out, made you long for someone more than you’ve ever longed for anything?”
My eyes went wide, and my gaze dropped to his lips. “No.”
“Then get ready.”
“I can’t… I’m not…”
He kissed me, and I couldn’t protest anymore. Maybe this was a dream. I’d had plenty where he was the star. This couldn’t be real, could it? My fantasy man couldn’t be here. I could never be that lucky or that cursed. If I didn’t do something to stop him, I might have the best night of my life, but it might also be my last.
4
LORENZO
Nikolai’s lips were as soft and pliable as I’d expected, and he tasted fucking heavenly. I’d caught him by surprise initially, but as I deepened the kiss, he started to struggle. I used my body to pin him to the wall, letting him feel how hard I was for him. He gasped into my mouth and pushed against my chest. I didn’t want to let him go, but after one more slide of my tongue against his, I pulled back and let him take a moment to catch his breath. I kept him caged in against the wall, wanting him to know he was mine for now. He couldn’t really be, not for long, but I wasn’t going to stop until he knew what he’d been missing all those years he was locked away.
He pressed a hand to his lips and stared at me. There was fear mixed with the desire in his eyes. That mix of lust and innocence was exactly what I craved.
I held Nikolai’s gaze as he dropped his hand and straightened up, rising to his full height, which was probably about five ten. “You have to leave now.”
I nuzzled his neck again as he tried to break my hold. “Is that what you really want?”
“It doesn’t matter what I want.”
“Yes, it does. Everyone deserves to treat themselves.”
Even you? Even after what you did? I pushed that voice away. I was here; this was happening. Now that I’d touched Nikolai, I wasn’t walking away until I had more.
“My father will kill you if he finds me here.”
I snorted. “He can try.”
“You don’t understand. I can’t do this. I’m… My marriage contract…” How could I tell him I had to be a virgin. The whole situation was fucked-up as hell.
“That cold motherfucker doesn’t deserve you.” I knew he meant Ivanov, but I pretended not to.
“She’s not cold. She’s very passionate, actually.”
He glared at me. “You know I mean Ivanov. I probably know more than you about his disgusting preferences.”
Nikolai frowned. “But aren’t you… You kissed me. How can you say he’s disgusting for liking men?”
I chuckled as I let go of one of Niko’s hands so I could brush the backs of my fingers over his cheek.
“I like men, and I don’t hide that. I’m talking about his need for all his men to be young—in fact, you’re many years older than the boys he usually goes for.”
Nikolai shivered.
“He hurts them, and rumor says they never come back sane if they come back at all. You deserve more than that.”
I realized in that moment that I was going to do whatever was necessary to keep him out of Ivanov’s hands. I’d talk to Remington, and we’d make a plan to stop this marriage. I was supposed to be getting revenge by having Nikolai myself, but how much better would it be if Ivanov never got to have him at all.
I almost convinced myself that my need to rescue Nikolai had nothing to do with the soft way he looked at me or the way he made fire race through my body with no more than a kiss.
He closed his eyes and let out a long breath. “It doesn’t matter what I deserve. My father will never let me go.”
Rescue him now. Get him the fuck out of here.
No, that was crazy. I’d start a war if I did that. I’d put my family at risk. I came upstairs to fuck Nikolai, to hear him beg for more, to know I’d had him when no one else had. This was about lust, about what my dick wanted. I couldn’t turn sentimental now. There was no quicker way to get killed in this business.