Total pages in book: 104
Estimated words: 99413 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 497(@200wpm)___ 398(@250wpm)___ 331(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 99413 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 497(@200wpm)___ 398(@250wpm)___ 331(@300wpm)
I jump into the shower to wash away the hours of sex clinging to me. This is just another form of procrastination. Those letters are awaiting me, but I don’t know if I’m ready to tear open those wounds.
Instead, I lather soap over my body then shampoo into my hair, trying to get lost in the heat of the spray. I hiss a bit when the soap running down my back stings. A chuckle bubbles from my lips as I remember encouraging Tasha as she clawed at my back while I thrust my way into her tight pussy.
We both got a little carried away. Not to say I would change a thing about our lovemaking. We know just how to please one another.
For eight years, we’ve had time to learn each other. I know my wife better than she knows herself. My thoughts go to Ellen.
I once thought I knew her as my wife, but I had been wrong. We didn’t know each other at all. Not like I know Tasha.
I know Tasha’s soul. I’ve seen myself within her. I think that’s why I’m putting these letters off.
Something tells me Sammy will reflect more of me than his mother. I don’t know if I want that for him. I lift my face to the stream and sigh.
I can’t change what will be. I can only prepare myself for what’s to come. I’m learning to be grateful for this gift.
The Alliance has been built from knowing things ahead of time. If Ellen can help me prepare our son, who am I to ignore her words?
I nod at my thoughts and turn off the water. Stepping out of the shower, I wrap a towel around my waist and head for my walk-in closet, where the box of letters sits. I take a seat on the floor and place the box down before me.
Lifting the lid, sure enough, I find a letter marked for Sammy for his eleventh birthday and another marked for me. I pick up the two letters and note there’s another for Jessica marked for a month after Sammy’s birthday. Curious, I remove it from the box as well.
Leaving all the others untouched, I replace the lid. I had once thought of reading them all in one sitting, but they’re not all for me. After some thought, I realized it’s better to allow things to unfold in the time in which she saw them.
The one thing I have been sure of is that these events won’t change, not by any of our doing. We can only manage our roles in these foretold events.
I open the letter addressed to me and inhale deeply. Seeing Ellen’s handwriting reminds me that I once failed a wife to the greatest extent. Not because I didn’t love her but because we weren’t living our truths.
Ellen wouldn’t have survived who I’ve become. She would never have become who I needed in my corner. I chuckle to myself. She never would have become the leader Tasha is. I’m not going to fool myself into thinking she ever could have.
LaSalle,
I will call you this now, as I believe this is who everyone knows you as. This is who you always were. Don’t worry. I know I was never meant to meet this side of you.
My purpose was far different than Monique’s. I’m sorry. Tasha’s.
You know her as Tasha, as you should. While I could give Sammy the gift of sight, Tasha will help you give Sammy the gift of being a ruler. It begins now, LaSalle.
You will need to put your pride aside and allow them all to do their parts. The Russian, the Italians, and the Irish lot, they all have something to impart. The Donatis will help him feel understood.
Uri is not trying to take your place. Sammy will just find a lot of himself within their family. Misha will help him to understand one of his greatest challenges and how to handle it in the end.
However, once the others are done, he will come to you for the finishing touch. Then and only then will he be prepared to become greater than you. It isn’t wrong to allow him to be prepared.
You aren’t a bad father for allowing this to be. You may have slain one dragon, but you didn’t burn the nest. Sammy will be the one; he will lead those who will set flames to your enemies once and for all.
They have gone into hiding and will come out to challenge his rule, not yours. What the world will take as his greatest weakness will become his greatest strength. Like you, Sammy will not be loud in his power, but he will be heard. Allow him to find his voice.
Although you and Tasha will want to fight his battles for him, you will learn he will never start a war he can’t win, and he will never lose a war he didn’t start.