Total pages in book: 129
Estimated words: 120029 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 600(@200wpm)___ 480(@250wpm)___ 400(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 120029 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 600(@200wpm)___ 480(@250wpm)___ 400(@300wpm)
A stubborn tower looms in the back of the structure, no doubt offering an excellent view of the uneven lattice of black and white stretching as far as the eye can see, but I didn’t come here to contemplate the landscape.
“The master of this castle died of sorrow,” Nate says softly as I stall, not yet ready to enter this ghost of a castle, because the unicorn might already be inside, and despite the ache in my chest, I want to keep my connection with Nate for that bit longer. I’m so selfish. “He listened to his family and married the right candidate instead of his beloved, and in the end, he just couldn’t stand being apart from her.”
“Oh. How do you know that?” I wonder if I could have saved everyone all this grief if I had tied my shadow to Nate’s right after pulling him out of the river. Gloombane would have had no claim on Nate then, and the love of my life wouldn’t have suffered unspeakable horrors.
And he may have loved me.
“I couldn’t sleep last night,” he says softly as I dismount, mentally preparing for the inevitable closeness when I help him off the kelpie’s back. “I went to the library and sought information about this place. Its master ended up drowning himself in the well and was buried with the weights he attached to his own ankles. Even in death, he couldn’t be with the one he loved and was laid to rest with his wife.”
I shudder, spotting the ruins of a stone well past the gate. It has no bucket, no roof, but there it is, a physical reminder of events that happened hundreds of years ago.
“Some places in the Nightmare Realm… They can become corrupted by the strong emotions attached to them. Maybe that’s why this castle never got rebuilt. The aura of melancholy wouldn’t leave.” I clear my throat. “Unless, of course, the book you read discussed a more practical reason for the abandonment?”
“No. If there is one, I didn’t find it,” Nate says, looking into the starry sky as I grab his hips and assist him onto the snowy ground.
There’s a tense moment between us as we stand chest-to-chest, so I quickly move away. To do something with my hands, I pull out my sword. “You never know what might be lurking in a place like this,” I explain.
The moon hangs over the ruins of what used to be a great hall. Huge windows are partially crumbled, some only arches letting through the silver glow. We could have been at the Nocturne Court right now, exchanging vows. I would have covered him with my shadow, as he said the words binding him to me forever.
I am yours. Body, soul, and shadow.
But to do that, he’d need to trust me. Which he doesn’t. Not fully.
And I can’t ask him to ignore his true feelings, even though I know we belong together.
I swallow when Nate steps forward, sweeping the snow with the hem of his cloak. Perhaps I should go first, protecting him from any threat that might await us within the fractured walls, but this is Nate’s first time here, so I let him explore and trail in the back, ready to swing my weapon in case of danger.
The echo of our footsteps is yet another reminder that this place fell apart with the soul of its master, and while it looks romantic from afar, the illusion is gone from up close.
This isn’t a folly designed for a moment of beautiful melancholy but a place where tragedy struck for real. The castle doesn’t mourn what it once was, it simply endures what a man of flesh and blood couldn’t.
We pass a wall where countless elves have left their mark by carving initials or brief statements in the stone, then pass into the ruins of a ballroom with the moon and stars as the chandelier. That’s when I see color.
Blue roses sprouting all around the garden outside its windows.
I’m so stunned I lower my weapon. My heart aches at their midnight blue shade. It’s as if they’re here to mock me, blooming even in the winter.
These are the roses so often symbolically used during the vows made with a Dark Companion. And here they are, whole bushes of them despite the snow. It melts on them, so they look as if they’re weeping, and I absentmindedly move in their direction, drawn to the dream they represent. One in which I close my fingers around the thorns, and Nate puts his over my hand as we make the promise that binds us for eternity.
Nate belongs with me, and if he learned anything from the story of this place, he should see it like I do. But I can’t voice that thought. He’s been through so much because of me that if he chooses the illusion of safety over happiness, I have no right to interfere, no matter how much it hurts.