Total pages in book: 91
Estimated words: 86322 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 432(@200wpm)___ 345(@250wpm)___ 288(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 86322 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 432(@200wpm)___ 345(@250wpm)___ 288(@300wpm)
“Aspen,” I said softly, resting my palm against her chest.
Her brows pinched as her attention snapped to my hand pressing her back against the dark cabinets, unaware of how fast her breathing had become. Slowly, her gaze lifted to mine, her chest still heaving. “I-it was j-j-just a lo-long day.”
“I know, baby.” I held her wide stare and crowded her in, blocking out everything but the space between us, pushing harder to restrict her lungs. “Let’s slow it down.”
“I-I’m tr-try-trying.” Her words broke apart between sharp inhales; her eyes squeezing shut.
“Look at me,” I ordered, adding more pressure.
After a moment, she obeyed.
“Good girl,” I praised. “Now, on the count of three, I want you to take a deep breath.”
She nodded, her ragged breaths already easing. I spread my palm wide, almost reaching shoulder to shoulder, and added more force as I counted. On three, I lifted my hand, allowing space for her lungs to expand with a sharp, hungry inhale. She held it for a heartbeat, then slowly let the air slip free, her shoulders collapsing with the release.
Lingering tension still coiled around her muscles, continuing to restrict her breath—but not as much as before, leaving room for her to reclaim some control.
Reaching down, I took her cold fingers and pressed them to my chest. “Feel me. Breathe with me.” I inhaled slowly, waiting for her to mirror each rise and fall.
After two full breaths, her head tilted back to rest against the cabinets, and I leaned in, responding softly to her day, keeping every inch of our connection.
“Did you find a replacement donation?”
Her shoulders tensed, and she choked over a breath again. “No. I ca-called around all afternoon, and I-I do—”
“Shhh. Stay with me.” I held her gaze and repeated my inhalations, waiting for her to find our rhythm again. “I can find a replacement for you.”
“What? How? And it can’t be something inadequate like n-no-nosebleed seats or a photo o-op, or so—”
“Stay. With. Me.” I punctuated the words with a dominant glare. I’d let her vent when she got home, but now it was time for her to let go and give her control to me. I waited two more matching breaths before continuing. “I’ll let you know for sure by lunch tomorrow.”
Her jaw clenched, but she didn’t pull her hand away from my chest, and she didn’t falter over her inhale. “Okay.”
“I’m proud of how you handled the conversation with your father,” I praised, my voice deep and calm. “You sound like you were in control and very professional. Even when you struggled with the lies. I know how hard it can be.”
I knew better than I wanted to how hard it was to lie to someone you cared about. I hated the lie I’d told my godparents. It had started simply with a serious girlfriend I might marry someday, and snowballed into cornering Aspen into a marriage of convenience. Guilt tugged at my chest—for lying and for making Aspen lie, too.
Shoving it aside, I focused on the last complaint of Aspen’s day.
“As for Emily…”
Aspen cringed and groaned. “Forget I said anything. I was rambling and didn’t think about…”
Her words faded as I lifted my hand to her neck, drawing her gaze to mine while my thumb slid along her jaw. “As for Emily, she has no claim on me. Therefore, you have nothing to worry about.”
“You would have asked her to marry you if I had said no,” she challenged. The honeyed tones in her eyes swirled, sparking under the darkness of my shadow, luring me to reveal more than I should.
Luring me to admit she had nothing to worry about because I never would have asked Emily to be my wife, even if Aspen had said no. I couldn’t imagine anyone but her standing in my kitchen now, which reset the alarms from earlier.
Again, I ignored them, but bit my tongue to hold back the confession. “You have nothing to worry about,” I repeated instead.
I continued to trace my thumb along her soft skin, letting the quiet stretch between us—space enough for calm to settle, even as the tension deepened. We stood pressed together, so close our breaths mingled with each exhale, and with every inhale, I tasted her.
Her tongue slid across her lips, and I ached to chase it back into her mouth with my own—to succumb to the desire to feel the plump flesh moving under mine after going without for so long. But I couldn’t. Not now, with vulnerable confessions lingering too close to the surface. Not when the last time I gave in and kissed her, I lost control and fucked her on my desk. No, in this moment, I needed to remain in control. She needed me to be in control.
“Are you feeling better now?” I asked instead.
Her eyes grew heavy as my hand settled at her waist, my thumb gliding upward before sliding back down to press into the curve of her hip.