Total pages in book: 87
Estimated words: 80953 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 405(@200wpm)___ 324(@250wpm)___ 270(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 80953 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 405(@200wpm)___ 324(@250wpm)___ 270(@300wpm)
It wasn’t until he was in the air, ten thousand feet above the city, that he could take his first clear breath. He had, at least physically, survived.
64
On the night I had told Tobey about my pregnancy, I had been both tearful and emboldened, stiff and defiant when I’d uttered the words and waited for rejection, every pore of my soul ready to fight to the death for my child.
He had been silent, then he had sworn, a stream of curses punctuated by his hands tearing through his hair, his fall into one of their chairs heavy, mood black. I had watched without words. In that moment, I hadn’t judged him. I had gone through a similar moment, everything in my world breaking apart, everything suddenly changed. I’d waited for him to come through it, to collect himself. To say the next thing, something that would tell me exactly what my baby’s father was made of.
“You’ll get married.” His father spoke for him, stepping out onto the porch, his voice allowing no discussion on the subject, my own dad behind him in the open doorway.
“Dad—” Tobey’s one word died, his head turned to his father, their eye contact held for a long moment before he turned away.
“You’ll finish this semester at Harvard, and you and Ty will live with us until you graduate. You can get married at Thanksgiving. Grad school will have to wait.”
Mr. Grant turned to me, his nod firm, the affection I’d always seen in his eyes still present, his excitement at the news almost worrisome in its glee. And with his declaration to Tobey, the decision was made. Tobey and my eyes met, and his face was that of a trapped man. I looked away, a fresh wave of nausea rising.
Maybe I should have protested. If I had, maybe the baby would have lived. Fate was funny that way; it had its own way of changing our lives.
AUGUST
“It was like the Curse of the Bambino, just bloodier. You see, the girls each died on whatever day the Yanks lost their chance at the World Series, be it the final game of the season or the playoffs. It was a brilliant strategy, if I can even say that. All of the attention, all of the pressure, went to the team winning it all. But every year, they fell short. And every year, another girl had to die.”
Dan Velacruz, New York Times
65
I propped a foot on the windowsill, all of Yankee Stadium stretched out before me. To my right, Tobey sat, his phone out, his finger moving. To my left, Dick Polit, the team GM and a world-class idiot.
“Shrimp cocktail?” the waitress offered, first to Dick, then to Tobey. She didn’t say anything to me, the staff accustomed to my tastes, the first rule of thumb being that I didn’t eat anything dignified during a game. Nachos, peanuts, and hot dogs were fair game. Beer was fine, soda preferred. I liked the massage girl if we were up by more than three runs, and could be downright hostile if we were down. My first days in the box, I adhered to the expected dress code, pairing a navy sheath with a white cardigan. As soon as I felt comfortable, I went native, ditching anything dry-cleanable for a jersey and jeans.
I watched Perkins closely, his step off second stiff. “See?” I elbowed Dick. “Watch Perkins move. He’s favoring that knee.”
“He’s also batting .284. He’s recovering from his surgery; it’ll get better.”
“It won’t. He’s a weak point. We could get some draft picks for him if we move quickly.” I chewed on the end of my straw.
“If we move quickly, we’ll have a hole in the outfield until the draft.”
“Coach says Vornisk is ready to move up. I watched his footage last week. He’s already better than Perkins.” There was the crack of a bat, and we all watched in silence, my eyes focused on Perkins, his run to third more of a hobble. “See!” I pointed, nudging Dick again. “Look at him. That could be a run. Right there, he just cost us a run.”
“I’m not trading an experienced player for a Minor League graduate.” He leaned forward, talking over me to Tobey. “You want me to get rid of Perkins? Give me enough cash to get a real player in. We can’t wait for the draft, and we can’t bring someone up, not halfway through the season. If Ty has a point, and you know I hate admitting that, we need quality, experienced blood.”
“I have a point,” I grumbled through a peanut shell, an empty cup to my lips, the shell spit out.
“You’ve got the biggest payroll in the league,” Tobey snapped, looking up from his phone. “Don’t poor-mouth me now. Not after I just paid twelve-mil for that reliever.”