Total pages in book: 152
Estimated words: 145155 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 726(@200wpm)___ 581(@250wpm)___ 484(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 145155 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 726(@200wpm)___ 581(@250wpm)___ 484(@300wpm)
He frowns. “You feel like you don’t know me? What does that mean?” he whispers as he pulls out of me and rolls me on my side to face him. Tears roll down my face and I am appalled at my own insecurity. I am getting a firsthand lesson that one of the most destructive emotions in a relationship is the poison of insecurity. I am frozen with fear.
“Baby,” he whispers as he pulls me into an embrace and kisses my face. “What’s wrong, sweetheart? I can’t fix it if I don’t know,”
“I know, Josh,” I sob, and he frowns. “I know you’re in love with Amelie,” I whisper.
He gives me a sad smile and nods. “It’s true I do love Amelie,” he whispers. I start to sob uncontrollably. I knew it. “But I’m not in love with Amelie. I’m in love with you. I don’t want to be with Amelie, I love her like a friend. I have no sexual attraction to her whatsoever. We have common interests, Tash. We both live in a country without our families. I feel very differently about her than I do you.” He cuddles me close as I listen to his words. “It’s different between us, Presh, you know that. Actually, you even told me that you loved your ex-boyfriends, but it was missing something because it wasn’t me,” he whispers.
I listen, that is true. “Do you feel like…?” How do I articulate what I want to say? “Do you feel like our relationship is holding you back from her?” I whisper.
He actually has the hide to laugh. He bends and kisses my lips again.
“You’re so fucking perfect, you know that, don’t you? I could never be loyal to Amelie, Tash. She’s not strong enough to hold me and I’m not sexually attracted to her. I would be playing up within a week and I know that—she knows that. Trust me I have slept in that house with her in the bedroom next to me for five years and never once have I wanted to go in. Whereas just the mention of your name makes me rock hard and ready to fuck. Besides—” he grabs me on the ass, “—I like witty brunette beautiful sluts who are gagging for it.” He smiles. I punch him in the stomach, and he laughs out loud. He pushes the hair off my face and kisses me tenderly again.
“I know it’s not going to be easy moving with me, Tash, but I promise you Amelie is not going to be the problem. I have even asked her to move out of the main house and into the farm next door. I knew you were uncomfortable with her there and seeing I love it so much I want you to love it too.”
I give him a sad smile. “Do you think I’m being a drama queen, Josh?” I whisper.
He gives me a broad smile and does wide eyes at me. “Totally…a raving bitch even,” he whispers as his lips trail down my neck.
I smile and giggle as he bites my neck.
“Do I need to be punished, Mr. Stanton?” I smile as he bites me again and comes over me. He rubs his hard length through my core.
“Fucking oath,” he growls as he slams into me.
29
Natasha
Today is the day, the day I have been dreading for seven years. We are telling our parents. Josh has flown his parents to Sydney on the false pretense of a business deal he is doing. I have been vomiting with nerves all morning and Joshua hasn’t eaten in two days. We feel sick and distraught because we honestly don’t know what reaction we are going to get…we could both be parentless tonight. But seeing as we leave for LA in a week the time has come. Cameron and Bridget are coming for moral support and by the sounds of it they are as nervous as us. They are having breakfast this morning together to discuss possible outcomes. I find myself pacing and shaking my hands in my bedroom while freaking out about what to wear. Joshua is dressed in a suit and leaning over the balcony rail on his elbows. He hasn’t been to bed yet and it’s 7 a.m. I watch him out the window…poor love, I have never seen him so stressed.
I walk out to try and comfort him. I smile and kiss him on the neck.
“Stop worrying, baby. We can do this. Just think of it as we are coming out as gay. They will be shocked at first and then they will be angry and that’s when we leave and in time they will have to accept us. We are not doing anything wrong, Josh, it is legal in most countries for us to be together.” I smile.
He frowns and shakes his head. “Stop talking, you’re making it worse,” he snaps.