Total pages in book: 61
Estimated words: 60077 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 300(@200wpm)___ 240(@250wpm)___ 200(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 60077 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 300(@200wpm)___ 240(@250wpm)___ 200(@300wpm)
Oh.
Well, people changed their mind about things, but maybe they’d been screamers who threw stuff at him?
Lamps were heavier than people wanted to admit.
“No one’s ever called me that.” Mostly because of the people I’d dated, probably, but it wasn’t an upsetting word. “I’ve never been in a position where someone I was seeing thought it was a reasonable word to use in…during private time together. But…”
Was I supposed to be telling him what I’d done with other people?
I was supposed to talk about limits and not surprise him with stuff, but what counted as oversharing?
Ugh.
It was one area that advice from Terrence really wasn’t helpful…he didn’t think anything was oversharing.
“But we both know I’m not like that in real life, so it’s just like some of the books where they do role-playing stuff. I’m not an omega either or a college student being seduced by a questionable professor, but that book was fun too.” When would be the right time to ask Bastian if he had a jacket with those leather patches on the elbows?
“Does the word make you question anything else?” Bastian was trying to sound relaxed and even licked around my ear sending sparks of pleasure through me, but he didn’t feel relaxed. “Remember, we can always find scenes that match both our desires.”
Yep, someone had definitely thrown a lamp at him too.
“No.”
Should it?
Was he going to make me ask?
Could I be patient long enough for him to start talking like he’d done to me?
Nothing.
Probably not.
“Um. You’re going to have to tell me why it should upset me.” Men were just as weird as women, but unfortunately, it was about different stuff. I should’ve tried dating a few more of them to figure out their eccentricities. “As long as that’s not something you need to safeword over.”
I hadn’t really understood why Doms would safeword when I’d originally started researching but it was becoming a lot more obvious that everybody came into a relationship like this with baggage.
Okay, not those aliens Leander read about…but everyone human did.
“You’re taking very good care of me.” As he nuzzled against my neck, I missed his teeth on my ear but I liked the words and the way his hands might be going lower.
Maybe.
“Between the breeding kink and the words like slut, some men think it’s too…too effeminate and they end up worrying that I’m looking for something different in a relationship.” Bastian paused, hopefully realizing something else in the relationship probably meant something I didn’t have.
And I was bi…or something like that…so I wasn’t the one to worry about that kind of stuff since Bastian was gay-gay, not even the curious might be talked into doing something interesting type of gay.
Oh.
“If you wanted a woman, you know how to get one of those and you should be well aware of what’s in my pants after we all went to that waterpark when I was a teenager. So…so yeah, I’m not worried about you wanting me to be something…something structurally different.” I might not have been a super traditional guy when it came to some stuff, but I wasn’t a girl.
Maybe he was worried because a lot of the friends I’d hung out with over the years were more masculine kind of people?
“I don’t mind that you might like a guy who’s not…well…who’s not on the real men don’t drink milk end of the spectrum.” I thought he’d probably find that level of manly insane, but it didn’t show me what he really liked.
As he chuckled, I tilted my head to cuddle against his since I wasn’t supposed to move my hands now that they were on my knees. “I think I’m going to need a while to figure out what kind of me I’d like to be in this kind of relationship, but you’re going to tell me that’s okay.”
We both knew I was right about that, so I wasn’t surprised when he gave another soft laugh and kissed me again. “You’re right. I am going to tell you that’s okay, and I’m also going to tell you that I’m proud of you for realizing you need to explore what you want out of this kind of relationship and how it’s natural for you to act.”
I liked girls in a lot of different ways, but I was starting to realize that I hadn’t done a good job of figuring out me to begin with. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that the figuring out myself part should’ve been part of that birds and bees lecture. I should not have slept with anyone until I knew who I was.
“So right now I know that it’s fine for me to explore different types of words and I don’t have to worry about how I react because you’ll talk about it with me.” And so far, none of my reactions had made him uncomfortable.