Total pages in book: 101
Estimated words: 96808 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 484(@200wpm)___ 387(@250wpm)___ 323(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 96808 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 484(@200wpm)___ 387(@250wpm)___ 323(@300wpm)
I take over the kiss and consume her. I know without a doubt I’m falling hard for this girl. Tonight was an epic fail on my part. But Oni? She held her ground and showed me she can handle being in my world.
“What about what I do want?”
“Oni,” I growl in warning as I grab her hips.
I take her lips as I back her toward my bed. I shouldn’t have brought her in here in the first place. Now that she’s here, I want nothing more than to lay her down and feast on her.
I lost my virginity at fifteen to a girl who was nineteen. Yet I don’t want that for Oni. I want her first time to be special. Something she’ll always remember fondly.
She doesn’t deserve to be fucked like a savage and tossed aside the next day. That’s who I’ve become. I make sure they never want to forget me and then I’m gone.
“Rico,” she whimpers as I kiss my way down her neck.
“I’m only going to hold you tonight. Sometimes it’s not the right time for the things we want. I want you bad, but I need you more.”
“What does that mean?”
It means I know where I want to go. I know who I need to be to get there. I’m losing more of myself with each day.
Oni is a breath of fresh air. She’s what I didn’t know I needed. However, I don’t have the words to tell her all of that. So I swallow my thoughts down and tell her what I can say.
“You will understand one day. I’ll get you one of my shirts. You can hop into bed while I shower,” I reply.
She purses her lips and looks as if she’s going to protest. After a beat, she sighs and nods. I close my eyes as she smiles then glides her small hands down my chest.
“Okay,” she whispers.
I take a breath and open my eyes. “Oni?”
“Yes?”
“When I get out of the shower, you better be here. Don’t run from me again. I just watched you stand in the middle of a gunfight.
“I’m not okay. I need you here,” I say, then kiss her nose.
I turn to find her a shirt and gather my thoughts. I fucked up. Tonight, I was supposed to show I could be indifferent to Oni.
Instead, I showed I will kill you for breathing in her direction. I have to spin this and keep her safe. Right now, my head is too fucked up for me to see how.
Losing her isn’t an option. I should send her home. I should walk away. I know all the things I should do, but those are all the things I will not.
“Fuck,” I hiss and punch the closet wall.
Oni
“Here,” Rico says as he hands me a T-shirt to change into.
“Thank you.”
I take it and hold it to my chest as he turns and heads to the bathroom. I don’t release a breath until he shuts the door behind him. Releasing a sigh, I go to sit on the edge of the bed and start to take my shoes off.
They drop to the floor with a deafening thud. It’s then I realize how hard I’m breathing. I’m going to spend the night in his room. In the bed with him.
“What are you doing, Oni?” I hiss at myself.
Megan lost her virginity last year. We’re a year apart, me being the oldest. I will never forget the look of regret on her face.
Would I regret going all the way with Rico? Something tells me I wouldn’t. I chew on my lip as I stare at the bathroom door.
His words come back to me, and I shiver. When I get out of the shower, you better be here. Don’t run from me again. I just watched you stand in the middle of a gunfight. I’m not okay. I need you here.
I understand how he feels. I want to be here with him too. Pulling up my big-girl panties, I stand and reach for the clasp on the back of my jumpsuit. It falls to my waist, and I cover my bare breasts.
I then reach for the side zipper and release it. The jumper falls to the floor, and I step from it. Quickly, I grab the T-shirt and pull it over my head.
The thing swallows me, falling well below my knees. I pick up my romper and shoes and take them over to the chair on the other side of the room.
As I set my things down, pictures on the desk grab my attention. I move to get a better look. A smile comes to my lips as I look at one that seems to be Rico, his cousins, and Mario as little kids.
Everyone has a smile on their face except for Rico. Even as a boy, he had a serious expression on his face. I wonder what he was thinking back then. Did he have so much on his shoulders even then?