Total pages in book: 95
Estimated words: 90026 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 450(@200wpm)___ 360(@250wpm)___ 300(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 90026 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 450(@200wpm)___ 360(@250wpm)___ 300(@300wpm)
“Tie?” I remove it from my wrist and hand it to him.
“You know how to braid hair?”
"When I was a boy, I used to braid my mother’s." I stay quiet for a moment as he finishes up. This is the most he’s ever told me about himself. I want to ask him questions, but I stop myself. I don’t want him to clam up on me.
“That's sweet.” I try to picture a young Nikolai. It’s hard to think of him as a vulnerable little kid.
“It would be the only sweet thing about my childhood.” I turn slowly to face him. He never talks about his time before Matteo took him in. I’ve always wondered about it. I knew it wasn’t good. But hearing his words causes an ache in my chest.
“I’m sorry.” My fingers itch to touch him.
“No reason to be sorry.” I place my hand on his chest. “I don’t want to talk about it.” His voice grows thick with emotion.
“Okay.”
“Unless you want to tell me about your knees, then maybe we could strike a deal.”
“Seriously?” I can’t help but laugh. This man will use any tactic to get me to spill about what really happened.
“Are you ready?” Sal asks, stepping into the kitchen. I expect Nikolai to say he’ll be taking me, but he doesn’t. Why am I oddly disappointed?
“She needs food,” Nikolai grumbles but doesn’t offer to take me himself.
“I got it.” Sal holds up a bag.
“Okay, then. I guess I’ll be going.” Nikolai doesn’t say anything as we leave. I swear that boy makes my head spin.
“Thanks for breakfast,” I tell Sal when we make it into the car.
"I was also getting myself some." He shrugs. "Thankfully, Nikolai didn’t slug me again, so I can eat it.” Sal takes a giant bite of a breakfast burrito before putting it back into his bag to start the car. I can see a faint bruise on his face. It must have been from Friday night.
“Sorry about him hitting you.” I motion to the bruise on his jaw.
“Nah, I was fucking with him.” Sal chuckles, pulling out of the parking garage.
“What?”
“Just giving the boy a nudge is all. Knew it would get under his skin.” I’m not sure what he means, but Nikolai isn’t a boy. I don’t care if he is eighteen.
“So, you and Abby?” I ask, taking a bite out of the sandwich he got for me. I don’t know why I keep going back to Abby. Yeah, I do. It’s because I’m curious about the type of women Nikolai might have dated before.
"We're friends."
"Oh, I thought—" I trail off, not sure how to phrase it. I’m actually not even sure if I should talk to him about it. I wouldn’t want to tell Sal about my sex life.
"That we fu—" Sal catches himself. "Sleep together?" I feel my cheeks heat, but I nod. "We do, but it's just sex. That's about all a lot of us have to offer when you live this life."
"You can say fuck, Sal."
"It's not the word fuck; it's more about discussing sex with you. I said I wanted to nudge Nikolai. Don't need him losing it on me. God knows it's a damn mess when he does."
I can’t help but wonder how many times Nikolai has lost his shit on people. I want to ask Sal more about it, but it somehow feels like an invasion of privacy or man code or something. I’m sure it always has to do with the lifestyle. If you know anything in this life it’s to not ask questions about that. Ever.
“He’s really touchy when it comes to you,” Sal continues.
“He’s hard to figure out.” I mean, give me some credit, I tried to hold out, but Sal seems to want to offer up information, and I’m desperate to try to understand Nikolai.
“Give him time. He’s gonna make some mistakes, but just know that I’ve never seen him like this before.”
“Like what?” Sal glances over at me, but before he can respond, his phone rings.
I go back to eating my sandwich. My thoughts now are on Sal saying that sex is casual for their lifestyle. Is that what Nikolai is after? It would be a casual thing. I hate to think of all the women he’s been casual with before.
Sal gives me a nod when we pull up to my school, still on the phone. I mouth goodbye to him before I get out. It’s my luck that the first person I see is Becky.
“Where’s your brother?” Becky asks with a smirk. Is she referring to Nikolai? Did he tell her that?
“I don’t have a brother,” I mutter as I pass by her. Weirdly, she falls into step next to me. Did Nikolai tell her that he was my brother?
“The man from the other day. With the tattoos.”