Total pages in book: 81
Estimated words: 75999 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 380(@200wpm)___ 304(@250wpm)___ 253(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 75999 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 380(@200wpm)___ 304(@250wpm)___ 253(@300wpm)
As light-headedness sets in, I realize no one has ever behaved like this toward me, but while it’s new, I can’t help feeling both pleased and shy.
I suppose I shouldn’t expect anything else, considering I’m no longer the designated man of the relationship. Which might come with a bit of a learning curve, but I was happy to suck his dick last night, so I should have probably gotten the memo by now.
I run my hands up his chest, exploring this new position I find myself in. I’m with a man. But it’s not just any man. It’s my Cass. We’ve touched each other sometimes, but not in a way that suggested anything beyond friendship. Now, he’s exuding a sexual energy I can’t get enough of.
“Me? Cute?” I laugh, stunned. While I had many thoughts about how handsome he is, it didn’t occur to me that Cass might be assessing me in a similar way.
He nods and cups my face after putting down his mug. I shiver when his fingertips brush my ears, and it makes him smile. “The cutest guy I’ve seen, yeah. I—” He swallows and keeps rubbing my face with his thumbs. “I’ve had such a crush on you since we were kids and I saw you do a handstand back in middle school, during Mrs. Ebenezer’s class. I thought you were the hottest piece of ass on the planet.”
Piece of ass.
That’s a new way to think about myself.
I chuckle, mindlessly running my hands up and down his sides. I love everything about him. “I never thought I was particularly… crushable.” I laugh and give him another kiss. “Out of us two, I always thought you were more handsome. The bait, so we both get girls. And then I always ended up just wanting to spend more time with you. I’m so oblivious. How could I not see it when you were right in front of me?”
Cass grins and leans in to give me the softest kiss on the lips. We’re barely touching, but I want to melt into him and become an integral part of his gorgeous, toned body. “Oh no, you were the hot one. The girls loved your jokes. I was always a bit shy with them, since I knew I wasn’t interested very early on.”
I arch against him so that my chest presses against his. “Do you love my jokes or do you just laugh at them to get in my pants?” I keep being amazed at how natural it feels to touch him. There’s an invisible barrier I always observed with other men, but it’s no longer separating me from Cass. We burned it down with the heat of our bodies last night.
Cassian gives a loud laugh before meeting my eyes, dead serious as he slides his fingers under the waistband at the back of my pants. “Is it working?”
My ears tingle with heat and I gasp when his hands grab my ass. It reminds me of that Halloween kiss I want to repeat while towering over him someday. Maybe I should wear the troll’s shoes again?
I nod. “Yeah. Definitely. I’m helpless. I can’t believe you liked-liked me back all the way in school. I’m so dumb.”
Cassian sighs and picks up his coffee, embracing me with one arm. Just being close to him like this makes everything inside me boil. “Well, I didn’t let you know. Back then, I was scared shitless of what would happen if you found out I was gay.”
I kiss his bicep, just because I can. I’m already planning to touch every inch of his body with my lips. “I get it. I’ve been freaking out since Halloween. That kiss really hit home for me. But then Logan was in the picture, and I was all over the place. I’m sorry I caused you so much stress.”
“Right,” Cassian says and points to a plate full of waffles cooling on the counter, inviting me to eat. “What was that about? After what we’ve done on your birthday, why didn’t you tell me you wanted me? Why did you break into Logan’s home?”
I groan and let my head fall back. I do need to eat if I’m to talk about all that bullshit. “I panicked. It made sense in my head. I didn’t know what that BJ meant to you. I decided I needed Logan out of the picture so we could have a clean slate. I worried that I’d just be… you know, a side thing in your open relationship.”
He blinks before pulling me into a tight hug, and I want to be nowhere else than in his warm arms. “Mattie! I’ve known you far longer than him. You think I would have risked our friendship like that? The thing I had with Logan… it was slowly dying,” he admits.