Total pages in book: 95
Estimated words: 92749 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 464(@200wpm)___ 371(@250wpm)___ 309(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 92749 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 464(@200wpm)___ 371(@250wpm)___ 309(@300wpm)
“It’s perfect. I love it. Benny’s amazing. Did he tell you, you can paint? He said it in front of Stormy, so she’s excited. She wants to paint your walls,” Zara says when I turn the camera back to my face. “It’s small, but perfect. I know I said that already. I’m just happy you’re here. The girls are too. And Levi. I’m sorry, I’m rambling.”
“It’s fine. Everything’s fine, Z. I met Benny already, and you know I don’t care about the color of my walls. I just need a place to sleep.”
“Small means cozy. Small means you can’t hide from yourself in too many rooms.” Her expression grows serious. “And this is temporary until a house that you love comes on the market or you decide to buy land and build.” Zara sighs. “How are you handling everything? Really?”
The question I’ve been avoiding since I loaded my car and drove away from the life I’d built. “I don’t know yet.” I’ve lost three of my best friends because I was told I had to choose between them and my sister. Actually, I lost part of my family because one member couldn’t keep his dick in his pants, and my sister deserved better. I will always choose her.
“That’s honest.”
“Honesty doesn’t pay rent.”
“Honesty gets you through the day. The rest figures itself out later. Besides, I know you invested, even if you are frugal. I know you have money, so stop being dramatic.” She shifts, and I hear Levi’s voice in the background asking about breakfast plans. “Besides, you’re not going to fail or ever fear you don’t have money to pay rent, Darian. You know what I think?”
Can’t wait to hear.
“What?”
“I think Nashville’s going to surprise you. Not in the touristy honky-tonk way, but in the way that matters. There’s real music here, D. The kind that doesn’t care about radio formats or market demographics.”
“I hope you're right.”
“I am. Trust me on this one.” She glances off-camera, then back. “I should go—Levi's making pancakes, and the girls will devour them all if I don't intervene. But call me later, okay? Let me know how the neighborhood feels.”
“Will do. Love you, Z.”
“Love you too, little brother.”
After we hang up, I sit in the quiet apartment and let her words settle. Outside, my new city continues its slow awakening—coffee shop employees unlocking doors, joggers stretching against lampposts, the distant sound of someone practicing piano scales through an open window.
I reach for the Martin and settle into my favorite chair I shipped to Z from California. My fingers find the strings without conscious thought, muscle memory guiding them through a progression I’ve been carrying for weeks. It started as nothing more than a feeling—the musical equivalent of homesickness, except I wasn’t sure what home I was missing.
But here, in this small room with morning light painting geometric patterns on the floor, the progression sounds different. More complete. Like it’s been waiting for this exact space, this particular quality of silence.
The melody flows through the apartment, mixing with street sounds and the distant hum of traffic. This is what I came here for—not to escape the music industry, but to remember why I fell in love with music in the first place. Before contracts and creative differences and bandmates who confused ego with artistry.
I play for an hour, maybe two. The song wants lyrics, but I’m not ready for words yet. For now, the melody carries everything I can’t say: the betrayal, the relief, the terrifying possibility that maybe losing everything means I finally have room to find something real.
When I finally set the guitar aside, my fingertips ache and my shoulders have unknotted for the first time in months. This silence feels different now—not empty, but expectant. Like the space between one song ending and another beginning.
My stomach growls, reminding me that gas station food and nervous energy won’t sustain me much longer. I grab my keys and wallet, then pause at the window to look down at the street below. Nashville doesn’t seem that different from Los Angeles. People are hustling, whether they’re dressed for work or play. Regardless, it’s all business.
I head downstairs and wave to Benny through the glass door as I pass by on my way outside. The morning air wraps around me like a warm blanket. The neighborhood spreads out in both directions—hand-painted signs for recording studios and vintage clothing stores, murals covering the sides of buildings, people who look like they create things for a living.
Mas Tacos sits two blocks south, exactly where Zara said it would be. The place smells like cumin and possibility. I order the special without asking what’s in it, then find a table by the window where I can watch the neighborhood continue waking up. A businessman checks his phone at the bus stop. Two women discuss weekend plans over coffee at the next table. A teenager with blue hair sets up a small amplifier outside the vintage clothing store across the street and starts playing blues that would make BB King proud.